So…final divorce proceedings were today. Managed to finish it in one day. Was hard…seeing my mother and having her not say a word to me, and listening to her commit perjury. Tough stuff. Feeling emotionally beat up and drained. At least it’s over, judgement pending. Whee.

AND.

I’ve secured an apartment in Provo. So…I’m moving to Utah at the end of August. o_O

*heads off for a much-needed nap*

Yeay! I got through the door!

Had to make up a new character…but…

The game no longer sucks.

Sucks my will to live more than Splinter Cell.

THREE TIMES IN A ROW I couldn’t open the same damn door and got killed.

They’re baaaaaaaack.

And have succeeded in making me feel like crap today. This sucks ass. It’s like being back in high school and in my parents’ house.

*bangs head on desk* WHY do I read CNN.com? WHY did I have to get a flashback? I haven’t had them in MONTHS.

*mad*

This game is going to be the death of me, I swear. I CAN’T GET PAST LEVEL ONE! GAH! Can’t aim right, controls are all wonky and inverted, even if I change it. *mutter* At least Halo I’ve gotten the hang of and Counterstrike I’m pretty good at.

Stupid splinter cell. *stabs it*

Okay, so it looks like I really might do the BYU thing after all. o_O Huge change if I do, sorta scary and world-upending. FUN STUFF! Good boarding there. Mmmm. Boarding.

Right now it’s…2:51 a.m. Took a nap earlier, bad idea. Got whacked by a two by four of a childhood memory (*coughnoidon’thaveptsd*cough*). Finally went to nap and had two hours of those clammy drenching sweat nightmares. Well, at least I’ve figured out what they’re ABOUT.

But what to do?

Dunno.

I feel centered now. I’m okay with it. Whatever happens with Nathan and his mission, it’ll be okay. This, now, engaged, is where we’re supposed to be. And I’m at peace with the mission. Finally.

And so is he. At peace with us and where we are and with the mission. And through our own prayer and thoughts through the night, we came to the same centeredness.

Cool. :o)

Yeah, I love him. I’m a big ol’ sap. ;o)